Oh Blog

Looks like you and I will be spending a lot of time together over the next 5 1/2 -  6 months.. A is deploying very, very soon. Which means that blogging may actually take a spot back in my life, maybe my heart? I know I've pulled away and been busy, but when you're faced with a full time job, side business and the prospect of a deployment you sorta say bye bye to the interwebs! 

On another random note.. I may need a new blog design, maybe? I need something.. I'm kinda off my "a game" for designing and working in general.. I'm blaming the November weather we have in May and maybe the whole I'm going nuts over life. This next year will be a lot of separation for A and myself.. after this deployment he starts training with his new job which is across the country.. then a PCS that I'm not 100% sure I'll be joining him on. You could pray for us, pray for a good location (not Washington) and a decent economy to find a job in. I can't just not work.... I feel useless and Lord knows I am not useless! Seriously, I wonder how people feel/get around knowing that they aren't living up the their full potential, it would bother me. But any ways if its west coast, I'll go with him :) but that's not until at least next summer.. maybe longer who knows! But I've gotta run, work is calling, not literally.. I just have to leave! 

-Acacia 

Happy feeling gone

Similar to Finding Nemo, when Marlin sees that creepy fish, last Wednesday was my "happy feeling gone" moment. See A was on the phone with someone he works with (because they all look the same, we'll refer to them as dude(s) so Dude was all "you have to deploy" and we're all :( sad face... you have no idea how much a of a freaking bummer that was! We had literally just started our vacation, only to be told that in a matter of weeks he'll be leaving out little "family" for the third time. Poop heads/bag of dicks.  

I'm mad at this new career field (yes, I can be mad at inanimate objects/jobs) because they said "don't worry about that thing, you're not deploying" so there I am, cloud 9, only to be shot down and set on fire by A's current job. Stupid. Bag. Of. Dicks.

I'm not happy, my heart is heavy and sad... I love A and don't like it when he has to leave so often, but through it all I will stand by his side... even if he's five thousand + miles away. 

So now what? 

Well blogging will probably become more relevant in my life and I will more than likely keep updating as time goes on. 

I guess that's all I can write about now, so .. thanks for reading. 

-Acacia

little updates

So if read my last blog you know my BIL (brother in law) has non-hodkins and hodkins lymphoma, the man is a freaking weirdo, and that he's been battling it for about eight years. My sister (his wife) and their two kiddos have been through seven rounds of chemo and just recently a stem cell therapy that will hopefully "reboot" his system and be all "eff you, cancer!" 

Last month after about 3 weeks in a nice clean (read scary clean) environment, two infections and massive amounts of hatred for needles and life, he came home! Though we don't know if the treatment has/will work, we're extremely hopeful, this is his "last chance" and he's even made it clear that if it doesn't work he doesn't want to continue treatment.. which I can understand.. from what I've heard chemo sucks. So this is the little update for those who were riveted by my BIL's ability to get two cancers in a few years.. I'm still impressed, the man just you know.. he saw what he didn't want and got it! -sarcasm- 

Other than that, A might still deploy.. thanks to his dick jobs of a squadron.. I'm just over the constant deployments, of watching my friends go through them too.. the supposed dwell time and deployment "promises" that never happen.. I sincerely think they suck. So at least you're all caught up.

Prayers would be greatly appreciated on all levels and I thank you for it.. it takes a village, right? 

-acacia